Yuck!

That’s been my day: yuck!  I’ve been quite painful in my throat and just not wanting to do anything.  I tried to take my amoxicillin when I remembered this afternoon and then I promptly vomited it up.  So much for that.  I’m able to take my Zofran, but I’m afraid to take anything else.  This is the first day that I haven’t taken a shower either.  I did put on three 25 mcg/hr fentanyl patches on, so I’ll see how I feel tomorrow.  I’m thinking it’s time for the G-tube.  I think I’ll be calling tomorrow morning to schedule that.  I still haven’t eaten anything today, just drank some water.  I may think about some juice.  I just don’t think I have it in me to take down Ensure today.

Opera was good last night, but I had to do a lot of spitting which is quite unladylike, and I’d get serious cold chills after every time I would move around some (like to go to the  bathroom to spit :-/).  I was tired last night, but able to get my act together enough to get home and put myself to bed.

It’s getting harder.  I wanna cry but it hurts so bad to do so that I have to control myself.  Life sucks right about now.